Being Human is Awful

For a long time, I hated being human. I used to hate being stereotyped into any category, even being human, because humanity has done so many bad things since it moved out of "the gardens." Talk about carrying inappropriate patterns about being in community or group.

Hating being human can definitely have a detrimental effect on my physical existence. Blaming my family of origin and never wanting to be in a family or group again is totally understandable when all one knows is the dark side of life. I hated the whole idea that someone, my family, my environment, humanity, had a hold on me and shaped my life to be just another human in a rat race like everyone else. My life fitted perfectly into what I call the "crab box theory." Let me explain.

When a fisherman is catching crabs, he usually puts them in a box as he catches them. When he throws the first crab he catches in the box, the crab fights and uses all of its might to free himself from the box. A second and third crab (or more) are caught and thrown into the box. Immediately, all crabs fight to pull each other down, so nobody gets out of the box. That was the pull or power of my immediate human group experience. Yes, I had issues around intimacy and being in groups with other humans. I am grateful for my conscious movement beyond the "crab box effect" of some people on my life.

One note about my movement beyond the "crab box effect." I could not have tackled such movement and the patterns or conditions of it until I had gained some sense of self separate from my family and friends. My sense of independent self accelerated when I moved 1200 miles away to Colorado. It took about 11 years in Colorado before I was able to begin handling ever-deeper "holding" patterns, and even longer before I felt the courage to "test" myself in community relationships again.

Soul will say that darkness, sickness, abuse and such "disturbances in the Force" of my life are doorways to the light. Besides, Soul knew the plan from the beginning. In my conscious soul workout, the disturbances in my "Force," the effects or results of my patterns and cycles of abuse from childhood, negativity or whatever, my challenged immune system, my rifts with family members, are all red flag opportunities for me to operate from the higher perspective of Soul.

Taking responsibility for myself as a spiritual being having a physical experience transforms the whole human experience thing. Again, the cumulative results of retraining myself differently take time. I am still sometimes uncomfortable with the bad things some humans do. God bless them. They present another opportunity for me to forgive and love. Previously wounded ones, people suffering with illnesses, people who are healthy and know they are more than physical, who choose the "High Road," are causing humanity to evolve differently. Humanity is in a global soul movement to a higher perspective of humanity.

The characteristics of being human are changing. I have seen it in myself. As I cause myself to think, feel and act from a higher perspective, I become more than human. I lift myself to a higher nature of being. By witnessing my own "upliftment" of myself from my former lowly, sinning state of being, to a refined, spiritual state, I feel a very strong sense that my conscious emotions have an effect on my genetics. I have no scientific proof for this strong sense. I am not a scientist. It just feels natural that the genetic material of humans would change with the introduction of a new factor, love and respect over generations, since humanity evolves as a species and adapts and changes physiologically. For example, human ancestors had hair all over their bodies and now we don't. Didn't something change genetically?

By working within the laws of cause and effect, I now pass on what I know, how I think, feel and act as a spiritual being having a physical experience, as does everyone else experiencing conscious soul movement. Being human becomes a highly refined way of being, worthy of the highest honors of the heavenly realms.

This article is excerpted from:

Soul Aerobics Conscious Movement of a Soul into Wholeness by Barbara J. Semple.Soul Aerobics - Conscious Movement of a Soul into Wholeness
by Barbara J. Semple.

Reprinted with permission of the publisher, Blue Topaz Publishing. ©2000.

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Barbara J. SempleAbout the Author

Barbara Semple has been a practitioner of Jin Shin Jyutsu, a gentle Oriental healing art, for over ten years. She enjoys Zen painting, and is also the author of Personal Power Cards, flashcards for emotional wellness. Barbara spent 20 years working in corporate and marketing communications until switching her focus to the holistic healing arts. Visit her website at


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