[Editor's Note: The following is an excerpt from Journey to the Heart, the tale of how one woman overcomes her bitterness and anger regarding life and love.]
Señora Labotta flicked on the small turquoise table lamp and a bluish soft light filled the quiet living room. Outside the crickets chirped their sad song and a light breeze blew through the open windows into the tranquil, peaceful Mexican house. The clock read 4:06 a.m.
“Luci, your love stories are humanity’s love stories,” Señora Labotta said softly.
Lucina remained silent.
“I can understand why for you, love is filled with black memories, but please remember that love has no past and no future: It lives in the present moment. That is the second rule in love. For it to survive it needs to be sheltered from the thoughts, the mind; it needs to be nested in the heart and it needs to be left alone. I understand that many humans need to go through rejection and illusions, it is part of their karma if you will, but you cannot allow your past to cloud your future.”
“Yes, I see that now too,” Lucina replied, sighing. After pouring her heart out, Lucina felt as though the past didn’t matter as much anymore. The past seemed like a bad dream that simply needed to be put into words in order to be forgotten.
“Bad love experiences happen to everyone,” Señora Labotta continued, staring deep into Lucina’s eyes. “You are not the only soul who has suffered in love. There is a saying I like very much. Boethius said this; ‘Commit your boat to the winds and you must sail whichever way they blow, not just where you want’.
"People forget that love is its own wind and that love cannot be controlled. Once you give into love, you are a goner so to speak. Your boat will be rocked, my dear, but eventually you will hit treasure if you persist.”
Lucina remained silent and stared out the window. A full moon stared back at her.
“Let me teach you something about fear,” Señora Labotta said, watching Lucina. “The opposite of love is fear. When you fear something, it is the brain signaling to you that you should not advance, that you should retreat. For example, if you see a snake in the woods, your first instinct will be to retreat. Your brain is telling you this, but why? Because a part of you does not want to evolve, a part of you wants to repeat all the past lives you have lived, and your fear is a mechanism which enables you to repeat endlessly your lives.”
“What would happen if you were to go up to the snake, stare it straight in the eye and say to it, ‘I am not afraid of you’? You would be breaking the chain of the past and you would be advancing to a new level. Every time you conquer something which you fear, you ascend. The only way to evolve is to ascend. Many people do not face their fears and they run instead, but in running, they are doomed to repeat the past.”
Lucina nodded her head. She knew that this was true from experience because she had been repeating the same relationships throughout the years. She had been chasing the wrong men, and for the wrong reasons. Most of the men she had loved had been afraid of love and there was her biggest problem: She had been chasing impossible men, men that didn’t believe in true love to begin with.
“How can you know which is the true love, the true mountain?” Lucina asked. Señora Labotta nodded her head, as if she knew Lucina would ask this question.
“You cannot know unless you climb and that is always frightening. But anyone who has faith will be rewarded in the end, even if it is not true love awaiting them. That is the third rule in love.”
A firefly buzzed in and spun around the dim light on the table.
“Señorita, it is time to go to bed now, but let us pursue our thoughts tomorrow morning.” Señora Labotta said, tiredly. “Thank you for sharing these stories with me tonight; I shall remember them a long time. I do hope you feel as though your heart is somewhat less filled with bloody memories?”
Lucina nodded, not sure if her heart felt anything anymore at all.
Señora Labotta disappeared in her red bedroom, after having wished her guest a good night of rest and recuperation. Lucina made her way quietly to the bathroom, locking the door behind her. She had spent the last few hours telling a perfect stranger her deepest moments of pain and it felt wonderful to finally share it with someone understanding. She looked at the pale face in the mirror and blinked. What happens after all those men? Is there only bliss now? she pondered.
She chewed her lower lip and closed her eyes.
I guess there’s only one way to find out if Teleo is yet another heart-ache. I have to climb and see what’s on top for me, she realized. What if there’s nothing more than pain? Then I must face my fear, not let it get me, not repeat the past.
Señora Labotta is right: The reason why the human race is not evolving is because we let fear lead us. Look at the war going on, is that not also ruled by fear, fear of the other? So much fear. So much fear.
How do I begin to get over my fears? Lucina thought sadly. She suddenly felt like Alice going down into the rabbit hole.
©2013 by Nora Caron.
Published by Homebound Publications.
Journey to the Heart: New Dimensions Trilogy, Book 1
by Nora Caron.
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Nora Caron has a Masters degree in English Renaissance literature and speaks four languages. After struggling through the academic system, she realized that her true calling was to help people live from their hearts and explore the world through the eyes of their spirit. Nora has studied with various spiritual teachers and healers since 2003 and she practices Energy Medicine as well as Tai Chi and Qi Gong. In September 2014, her book "Journey to the Heart", received the Living Now Book Award Silver Medal for Best Inspirational Fiction. Visit her website at: www.noracaron.com
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