As I sit at the computer, reading my emails, I am also blow drying my hair, typing with one hand. My back starts to ache from sitting in one position for too long.
As I tune into my body, I stop, pause, and realize that this is insane... That I am somehow pursuing goals instead of living in joy. That I have lost the juice, the joy, and the flow of events in my life. That which started out to be fun and invigorating, is now becoming a chore, a deadline, a "have to" instead of a "want to".
Watch For Signs of Life Balance Needed
My body is speaking to me of its pain, and I choose to listen. To stop, to slow down, and to look for ways to bring back the joy, balance, and harmony necessary to live one's life in balance.
Playtime. What do I enjoy doing? What gives me pleasure and inspires me to look at things in my life from a different perspective? Where is the invisible thread that brings me back to my center, my focus, my stillness... the part of me that knows that for things to happen one needs to move in a flowing action, not pushing the currents. Not making waves, churning up the water, the emotions, and then calling in the Gods of Action, thinking that I will have accomplished anything but chaos.
I used to think because I had so many interests going at the same time that I was not focused, not productive. At least that is how our society views things. One must constantly be in motion... and the motion must bring one results. I have found this to be untrue...
Sometimes the results that we seek may include people, places, and things that have not yet lined up for us. Patience is a virtue and that knowing it will all turn out OK is a powerful affirmation of belief. Trust is believing in the unseen events unfolding in their own time and space. In stopping, stepping away, and letting go, I am aligning with the good that the Universe has in store for me. The things I do that may not have anything to do with the idea of work, that give me joy, also give me a new insight into things.
Finding Answers To Problems By Life Balance
As I watch a movie I may find inspiration, or the answer to a problem that I want to solve. In any event, as I focus on a creative endeavor, I find that gears shift within me... That I am able to pause, to become the observer, and not the reactor. That as I slow down, who knows, maybe the events that need to come into my life will get there faster.
I don't know. But for now... I let go, I pause. I sit on the hammock. I swing to and fro. I look at the clouds. I feel the breeze on my skin. I sigh and bring balance and harmony in my life, and in my affairs.
Have a wonderful day...
InnerSelf Recommended Book:
The Happy Mind: Seven Principles to Clear Your Head and Lift Your Heart
by William R. Yoder.
About The Author
Rosalyn Harwood is a seeker and at times a messenger. She has been a mother, a city councilman's wife, a navy wife, a single parent, and has worked as an "intuitive counselor". She is a creative being, designing clothing, interior design, incorporating principles of feng shui, energy clearing and sound, light and color. "I like to think of myself as 'everyone' for I like to share my insights with the hopes that it will touch another and that they might 'rethink'."